I love you the most in the world [Entertainment circle]

Chapter 229.1

Editor: Princess

The next day, Lin An Lan rarely refrained from going to work.

He told Cheng Yu that he was taking a day off today, though in actuality he had his own plans.

At noon, he prepared lunch and drove to the Yu family’s company.

Yu Hanshuang was slightly surprised when she heard that he had come, then instantly guessed the purpose of his visit.

The secretary respectfully led Lin An Lan into the office. Yu Hanshuang closed her pen and walked to the sofa in her office, inviting him to sit together with her.

“How come you came today?” She asked with a smile.

Lin An Lan took out the lunch box and arranged it in front of her. “I brought you lunch.”

“You made this yourself?” Yu Hanshuang was delightfully surprised.

Lin An Lan nodded and helped her open the lid.

Yu Hanshuang looked at the food, her heart filled with tenderness.

These were all dishes she loved. Lin An Lan must have put considerable effort into making them. She looked at the person beside her and touched his hair. “You should eat together with me.”

Lin An Lan nodded and began eating with her.

The dishes were very well made and suited Yu Hanshuang’s taste perfectly. Lin An Lan ate quietly, as if he had really come simply to bring her lunch.

Yu Hanshuang also remained silent and ate with him. Only after finishing the food and slowly drinking water did she speak. “It was very delicious. I liked it very much.”

“Then I’ll cook for you in the future too.”

“That won’t be necessary. You have your own matters to attend to. There’s no need to delay your time for me. Eating in the cafeteria is fine for me.”

She looked at him, her tone gentle. “When I want to eat your cooking, I’ll tell you at home, and then you can make it.”

Lin An Lan nodded quickly, then fell silent for a moment before slowly speaking the words he had been wanting to say. “I’m sorry.”

He said, “About the matter between Cheng Yu and me, I’m very sorry.”

“Last night, I originally intended to go with him, but he didn’t want me to go. I didn’t want him to be unhappy, so I didn’t go. However, I actually should have gone with him to speak to you and Dad. This is a matter concerning both of us, and we should have shouldered it together.”

Yu Hanshuang listened and smiled slowly, asking him, “What are you apologizing for? Are you sorry that you grew up with him since childhood, or sorry that you’ve always taken such good care of him, or sorry that despite having your own thoughts, you still consider his feelings?”

“An An, I understand my son very well. He’s a person with strong opinions. If he hadn’t willingly chosen to love you, then no matter how much you liked him, you wouldn’t have been able to move his heart. I used to worry greatly. Worried that he would be like his father, promiscuous and unfaithful, and also worried that he would be like me, giving his love to the wrong person. However, he’s been fortunate. He hasn’t become like his father, treating relationships frivolously and irresponsibly, nor has he become like me, hurting himself because of love.”

“He feels comfortable and natural in love, and all of this is what you’ve given him. So what do you need to apologize for?”

Lin An Lan had considered that she might not blame him, but he hadn’t expected her to comfort him so gently. He stared at her in a daze, then said softly, “If we’re together, there won’t be any children.”

“When you have a child, as parents, you should naturally love and protect them well. However, when you don’t have a child, as an independent individual, the person you should love most is yourself. Each of us is an independent individual, destined to be unable to fulfill all of our parents’ expectations from birth. When I was young, my parents weren’t very supportive of my marrying Cheng Feng. They felt that Cheng Feng was unreliable and feared I would be hurt.”

“But I wanted to marry him because at that time, I felt it was the best choice. I understood my own personality very well, so I chose to marry him. This is human nature—living people can never satisfy their parents’ every wish because people inherently have their own thoughts. Therefore, my parents respected my thoughts, and I also respect your thoughts.”

She looked at the child before her, subconsciously remembering when he was still small. “Do you remember what I told you before?”

“What?” Lin An Lan didn’t understand which words she was referring to.

“That year when I moved out and you came to find me, I said I hoped you and Xiao Yu could always be good to each other. I said that if one day I wasn’t here anymore, then you should put more effort into caring for him and taking care of him. At that time, you didn’t promise me. You said you were only a younger brother, not a mother, and you couldn’t do it. But now, you can do it.”

Her eyes were filled with loving kindness and peace. “You’ve grown up. You’ll become his partner and stay with him forever. Even if one day I’m not here anymore, you’ll help me take care of him, won’t you?”

Lin An Lan nodded quietly, then said, “You won’t be gone.”

Yu Hanshuang hugged him, laughing. “Silly child, I’m so much older than you two, of course I’ll leave before you do. But this is good now. At least I can feel at ease. In this world, I wouldn’t feel comfortable entrusting you two to anyone else’s hands, but now that you’re together, my two most beloved children are together, I can naturally feel at ease.”

“Mom.” Lin An Lan called her softly.

Yu Hanshuang rubbed his head. “So there’s no need to feel guilty. Look at Xiao Yu, he doesn’t feel guilty, so you don’t need to either.”

Lin An Lan couldn’t help but hold her tightly and promise, “I’ll take good care of him.”

“Mm, I know.” Yu Hanshuang responded. “Just as he said, he’ll take good care of you. No one could be better to each other than you two.”

In that moment, Lin An Lan felt tolerance and love. All the cruel scenes he had imagined never appeared. Yu Hanshuang gave them the greatest degree of maternal love. She released her hands but delivered the future right before their eyes.

Lin An Lan held her, feeling that she really was a very gentle mother.

He chatted with Yu Hanshuang for quite a while before leaving the Yu family’s company.

Yu Hanshuang watched him leave, let out a gentle sigh, then smiled. Her children were all very good children.

**

Lin An Lan didn’t return home or go to the bookstore. Instead, he went directly to the Cheng Group.

Cheng Yu was rarely not at the company today, having gone to find Yu Heng instead. Therefore, he chose this time specifically to meet with Cheng Feng.

After all, he was Cheng Yu’s biological father, so he felt he also needed to apologize to him.

Regarding this love between himself and Cheng Yu, he always felt guilty. This guilt didn’t stem from the matter itself but from his own moral sense. The stronger his moral sense, the more guilty he felt.

When Cheng Feng heard that Lin An Lan had come, he almost instantly guessed why he would visit.

Honestly speaking, he, being the type of person he was, didn’t support homosexuality. He claimed his father was somewhat traditional, yet in his heart he shared the same thoughts as his father. If they couldn’t have children, then what was the point of marriage?

If today Cheng Yu had told him he was with some other boy and they wanted to marry, he felt he definitely wouldn’t have the heart to break Cheng Yu’s legs, but he would definitely have the heart to break the legs of that boy who dared try to be with Cheng Yu!

Seducing his son, what audacity!

But it happened to be Lin An Lan, the Lin An Lan he had watched grow up since childhood. Between Lin An Lan and Cheng Yu, who seduced whom? Anyone could tell with their eyes closed that it must have been his son who made the first move!

He couldn’t bear to break Cheng Yu’s legs, and he certainly couldn’t bear to break Lin An Lan’s legs either. Therefore, he could only turn a blind eye and accept this situation.

His only regret was that Lin An Lan wasn’t a girl. If he were a girl, everyone would be happy, and he would raise both hands in approval.

But unfortunately, he was a boy, which made things very difficult.

He was very worried about their family’s next generation. Although they could adopt, whose child would they adopt? What if the adopted child grew up and insisted on returning to his biological father like Jiang Xu?

He himself didn’t care much about blood relations. Even though Cheng Yu was his only son, he believed that no one could enter their family’s door without Cheng Yu’s permission in this lifetime.

But people like him were rare after all. Wasn’t Jiang Xu a living example? He had grown to sixteen or seventeen years old and should have had some sense, yet he still came seeking recognition from his ancestors when his father ignored him and didn’t want him.

What if the adopted child turned out like Jiang Xu? Wouldn’t Cheng Yu and Lin An Lan be the ones to suffer in the end?

Thinking of this made Cheng Feng very worried. There were always some people in this world who were confused and brainless. Even his excellent bloodline could produce an idiot like Jiang Xu, let alone other people’s bloodlines.

Cheng Feng felt melancholy and depressed, but this didn’t prevent him from putting on a kind expression before Lin An Lan entered.

Lin An Lan brought him coffee and pastries as afternoon tea.

Cheng Feng accepted them, pulled him to sit on the sofa, and smiled. “How do you have time to visit Dad today?”

Lin An Lan looked at him, rarely feeling somewhat guilty. He seldom experienced this feeling when with Cheng Feng. After all, since third grade, he had known that Cheng Feng had done things that wronged Yu Hanshuang and Cheng Yu. However, today, sitting across from Cheng Feng and looking at him, he felt unusually guilty.

Because he was Cheng Yu’s father.

“I’m very sorry.” He said in a low voice. “I shouldn’t be with Cheng Yu. I know this, yet I couldn’t do it.”

Rationally, he understood everything, but he couldn’t suppress his emotions.

He and Cheng Yu had been together for too long. So long that he himself didn’t know when he had become unable to accept Cheng Yu leaving him.

“I’m sorry.” He said softly.

Cheng Feng looked at him and sighed. “An An, honestly speaking, I indeed find it difficult to accept men being together. Men can’t bear children, this is reality. I hope Cheng Yu has a biological child to inherit our Cheng family bloodline. This is also my most genuine thought. But An An, I’ve watched you grow up since you were small. In all these years, you’ve never done anything that displeased me. If you were my biological son, I would definitely love you more than Cheng Yu. So I can’t say anything about you, do you understand?”

“I feel guilty toward your mother and Xiao Yu. The matter with Jiang Xu is what I feel most guilty about. Your mother and Xiao Yu don’t mind, but that’s because they can’t be bothered to fuss about it. But I know they were actually hurt by this incident too.”

“Who could tolerate such a thing? If someone told me now that your mother had another child with someone else, I don’t know what I might do. So whether Xiao Yu criticizes me or confronts me, I endure it all. I owe him one act of tolerance. I personally told him that blood relations don’t matter, so I can’t turn around and say blood relations are very important. Wouldn’t that be slapping my own face? How could Xiao Yu feel secure about Jiang Xu then, and how could he believe that I really only care about him?”

He looked at Lin An Lan, his eyes full of helplessness. “I can’t bring myself to be harsh with Xiao Yu, and even less so with you. What wrong have you done? You’ve been the most well-behaved one in the family since childhood. Whenever your mother and I argued, Xiao Yu wouldn’t come to find me, but you would come to persuade me. You would tell me that Xiao Yu couldn’t be without a father, and that your mother’s health wasn’t good. If you hadn’t told me then how poor your mother’s health had become, I definitely wouldn’t have noticed at the time, and who knows what would have happened later.”

“So An An, I don’t blame you for this matter.”

He patted Lin An Lan’s shoulder. “You don’t need to feel guilty either. There’s nothing to feel guilty about. It’s not your fault that you’re not a girl. No one knows what their future will be like, so no one can choose their birth circumstances. You’re a good child, and you’re really the person who treats him best in this world. You even care about him more than I, his father, do. So it’s very natural that he likes you. I can understand, and I can accept it. I’m just somewhat worried about your future, do you understand?”

“I’m afraid that if the child you two adopt turns out like Jiang Xu in the future, insisting on recognizing his ancestors and returning to his biological father, wouldn’t you have raised a child for nothing all these years?”

“That won’t happen.” Lin An Lan told him. “Not everyone is like that. Children are born as blank slates and need their parents’ guidance and education. Just as I would never think of seeking out my biological parents, I believe that as long as Cheng Yu and I can properly educate and raise the child, he will be like me and won’t be like Jiang Xu.”

“I hope so.” Cheng Feng said worriedly.

Lin An Lan consoled him. “Actually, it’s quite normal. After Jiang Xu’s mother left you, her life wasn’t as prosperous as before. Later she fell in love with someone else and abandoned Jiang Xu. That’s why Jiang Xu came to find you, longing for your recognition. But before his mother abandoned him, he never came to find you. Perhaps he didn’t know of your existence, but it’s also possible that at that time, having just his mother was enough for him.”

“So as long as Cheng Yu and I don’t abandon him, I think he shouldn’t want to return to his biological parents.”

Cheng Feng shook his head. “That’s still different. The biggest problem with your and Xiao Yu’s child is that he’ll know very clearly that neither of you could have given birth to him, so he’ll be curious about who his mother is and will long to know about his birth. This is human nature, and once he knows, it becomes very difficult to control what happens next.”

Lin An Lan fell silent for a moment, then smiled. “It doesn’t matter.”

He continued, “Then we’ll just be more careful when choosing the child. Moreover, I have faith in Cheng Yu and myself.”

Since he put it this way, Cheng Feng didn’t want to pressure him further, so he nodded and patted his shoulder. “That would naturally be best.”

Lin An Lan hadn’t expected that this would be his greatest concern. He was somewhat surprised, having thought Cheng Feng would find it very difficult to accept. Instead, it turned out much better than he had anticipated.

He chatted with Cheng Feng for a while before returning home.