I love you the most in the world [Entertainment circle]

Chapter 216.1

Editor: Princess

That was indeed true, Lin An Lan thought. His relationship with Cheng Yu was indeed much better than that of ordinary brothers, so perhaps there was nothing wrong.

When Yu Hanshuang returned home, Cheng Yu told her about Jiang Xu.

Yu Hanshuang was surprised but didn’t seem very shocked. She merely said, “Is that what he said?”

“Yes.” Cheng Yu nodded.

Then looking at Yu Hanshuang, he asked, “All these years, you’ve never let him into your bedroom. Is it because you already knew he had an affair?”

Yu Hanshuang smiled slightly and nodded. “When you were little, there was a time I moved out of the house because of this.”

“Then why did you come back? Because of me?”

“Not just because of you.” Yu Hanshuang poured herself a glass of water, took a sip, and said gently, “Xiao Yu, your father and I had an arranged marriage. Marriage isn’t just about two people; it’s about two families, especially in an arranged marriage.”

“After your father and I got married, our two families had many business collaborations. On our wedding day, your father gave half of his shares to me. The day you were born, we both gave a portion of our shares to you. So I could never divorce him. Our interests are too entangled, and divorce wouldn’t be a simple matter. Besides, even if we divorced, what then?”

“You could pursue a new life.” Cheng Yu said. “Find a man who really loves you and whom you really love.”

“But loving someone is itself a luxury.” Yu Hanshuang smiled. “Do you know why I married your father back then?”

“Wasn’t it an arranged marriage?”

“But why was it arranged with him?”

Cheng Yu didn’t know.

“Because I didn’t have someone I liked. Everyone thought I should have someone I liked, but I didn’t. I frequently heard your maternal grandparents introducing potential matches to me, all sorts of men, talented ones, good-looking ones, virtuous ones, but I didn’t like any of them. It wasn’t that they weren’t good, I just didn’t feel moved. So I was annoyed and tired of it. I felt I didn’t need love. Must one love someone to live? Love is a luxury, so why not just give up if you can’t obtain it?”

“It was with this mindset that I met your father. He was certainly very handsome—the most handsome among all the blind dates I had. Attractive people always have an advantage, even if only as eye candy. Moreover, he didn’t want a relationship either. He was young and wild then, only wanting to enjoy the moment, not caring about things like feelings or love. So we agreed to cooperate, with interests as our goal, respecting each other after marriage without forcing or pressuring each other.”

“In this regard, he’s done reasonably well. Whether I stay or leave, it’s my own decision. When I don’t let him into my room, he doesn’t dare enter no matter how much he might want to.”

“And that’s enough.” Yu Hanshuang looked at him. “Divorce is simple, but life after divorce would probably be just like now: focused on work, taking care of you and An An, going out to play, shop, or read books when I have time, and resting early when I don’t have time, cherishing my health. If that’s the case, then what difference does it make whether I divorce or not?”

Cheng Yu looked at her, somewhat puzzled. “Don’t you want to be with someone else?”

“All these years, it was only during that one period that I felt attracted to your father. At other times, I’ve been quite indifferent, watching men come and go around me. I don’t want to be with anyone because I don’t feel I must be with someone. If there must be someone I can’t let go of, someone I can’t leave, that person would definitely be you. So the current situation is the best.”

“You don’t need to feel I’m sacrificing for you. This is the inevitable choice of my personality. I know my personality very well. As long as I have this personality, divorce isn’t necessary for me. Of course, this also has to do with your father as a person. He’s certainly not a good man, but he won’t make things difficult for me. So as long as I let go of my feelings for him and treat him merely as a business partner, he is a good business partner, and I’m satisfied with that.”

Cheng Yu was speechless. His parents’ views on love were clearly different from his. They had their own set of values about love, which he couldn’t understand, but he couldn’t expect them to change either.

His mother certainly didn’t appear to be enduring humiliation, and his father had indeed been submissive all these years, not daring to overstep.

They had their own standards, so they didn’t need him to worry about them.

“Then about that illegitimate child…”

“Leave it to him to handle.”

“Did you already know?”

Yu Hanshuang smiled slightly. “I can be fooled once, but how could I stumble twice over the same issue? However, he really isn’t important. Your father didn’t lie to you. He has no feelings for that child, nor any nostalgia. Everything he has will be yours, and everything I have will also be yours.”

Yu Hanshuang looked at him seriously: “Xiao Yu, in families like ours, affairs, mistresses, extramarital relationships, illegitimate children, none of these are rare. You can be angry, but don’t be too upset, and don’t torment yourself over this. I made myself too miserable back then, but thinking about it now, it wasn’t such a big deal. Haven’t I seen such things before? I’ve seen too many. So don’t punish yourself for others’ mistakes. You can hate him and dislike him, but don’t hurt yourself.”

Cheng Yu nodded. “I understand.”

Yu Hanshuang stroked his head. “That’s good.”

When Cheng Yu returned, he still felt very peculiar.

Lin An Lan came out after showering and saw Cheng Yu sitting on the bed. “What are you thinking about?”

“Thinking about how people’s views on love can be so different.”

“What do you mean?” Lin An Lan wiped his hair.

Cheng Yu took the towel from his hand and helped him dry his hair. “Mom came back, and I just told her about the situation.”

Lin An Lan turned around in surprise. “Didn’t we agree to tell her together?”

“She happened to come back and talk to me, so I mentioned it.” Cheng Yu reassured him. “It’s fine. She’s in good spirits. She already knew.”

“What about you?” Lin An Lan asked.

Cheng Yu was silent for a moment, then said softly, “I had actually guessed before that my dad might have had an affair, so although it was unexpected, it wasn’t completely surprising.”

“After all these years, I’d also prepared myself mentally.”

Lin An Lan took his hand subconsciously. Cheng Yu sighed, “I just didn’t expect that he would have an illegitimate son.”

“I didn’t expect that either.” He distinctly remembered hearing that there wasn’t one.

But according to Cheng Feng’s logic, even if asked now, he wouldn’t think he had one.

“I was actually quite angry, but as I argued with him in the study to the very end, I asked myself, what am I demanding? When you argue with someone or encounter something that upsets you, you can’t just be upset or argue with that person. You need to resolve the issue, understand what your demand is, and then put the matter aside. So I asked myself, what is my demand?”

“I wanted Jiang Xu to not exist, but can I stuff him back into his mother’s womb? No. Can I kill him? No. Can I accept someone else killing him? Also no. So he can only exist, and given that premise, what is my demand?”

“It’s that my father doesn’t love him, that he loves me more, loves only me, that he doesn’t care about Jiang Xu at all, that he ignores him completely and doesn’t care about him. And Cheng Feng has already done all of this. He’s even done more than I would have demanded. So, it seems all my demands have been met.”

Lin An Lan nodded. “He really loves only you. You are his most beloved child.”

Cheng Yu reached out and hugged him. “So, although I’m still very angry, somehow I can’t completely direct my anger at him.”

Cheng Yu felt dejected. “My mom said not to be too hard on myself, not to hurt myself with others’ mistakes. I think she’s right. From Jiang Xu’s perspective, he’d probably want to see me irritated, suffering, and angry, preferably with there being conflict in the family, where I’d fight him to the death whenever I saw him. But why should I fulfill his wishes? If I’m irritated, suffering, and angry, in the end, I’m the one who suffers. But I’ve done nothing wrong. I’ve passively accepted everything from the beginning. Why should I pay for him and Cheng Feng?”

Lin An Lan nodded firmly. “Yes, so don’t be upset.”

Cheng Yu smiled and pinched his face. “I’ll try my best. I’ll work hard at it.”

Lin An Lan raised one hand. “My hand is also yours to pinch, one for each hand.”

“You’ll let me pinch both? One in each hand?”

“As long as you’re not upset.”