Chapter 41.1
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Lin An Lan laughed lightly, “I’m jealous? What am I jealous of? It’s not like I don’t know that you like me, so why should I be jealous?”
Cheng Yu approached him gently, almost getting close to his lips, “That’s right, I like you so much, so my baby really doesn’t need to be jealous.”
Lin An Lan suddenly felt a little guilty. He blinked uncomfortably, his face burning a little.
“But I’m still happy.” Cheng Yu added, “Because you don’t want me to hype up a CP with anyone.”
“This is the first time you’ve ever minded me having such an unnecessary entanglement with someone else.”
Lin An Lan was stunned for a moment, thinking in his heart, Is this what Cheng Yu is concerned about?
Cheng Yu gave him a quick kiss on the lips, his tone full of joy, “I like the feeling of being taken care of by you.”
He looked at Lin An Lan, his gaze gentle and focused.
Being looked at like this, Lin An Lan couldn’t help but lift his chin and kiss Cheng Yu on the mouth.
It wasn’t that he didn’t like Cheng Yu so how could he really not care at all? It was just that he thought that this kind of work-related matters would be fine once the two of them had discussed it clearly. If he cared too much, he would cause his boyfriend’s hands to be tied, hinder his work, and add to his worries.
But it turns out, Cheng Yu wanted him to mind?
“I’ll always mind.” Lin An Lan said softly, “I like you too, and naturally would like you to be mine alone and not to have this unnecessary entanglement with anyone else, but we are actors and our work as actors means that we cannot avoid this kind of thing completely, that’s why I’m rational enough to act as if I don’t mind.”
“Because I know you like me, only me, especially me, so I trust you not to have anything to do with them.”
“I trust you.” He explained.
Cheng Yu froze. The next second, him picked Lin An Lan up and twirled him around before putting him back on the ground as he looked at him in surprise, “So it’s not that you don’t mind, but that you trust me?”
Lin An Lan nodded, “I know you won’t have anything with anyone else. I can’t guarantee anything concerning others, but I’m sure about you.”
Cheng Yu’s heart was instantly filled with joy. He had always thought that Lin An Lan didn’t care and thought that he didn’t take such things to heart. He never thought that it was because he trusted him.
He hugged Lin An Lan and whispered, “Of course, I don’t like anyone but you.”
“Then that’s it.”
Lin An Lan smiled as well as he looked at him. He really hadn’t expected Cheng Yu to want him to have an issue with it.
The biggest fear between lovers was not trusting each other enough, that was why he had given his trust to Cheng Yu a long time ago, thinking that Cheng Yu would be at ease.
But what he didn’t expect was that what Cheng Yu wanted was actually him having an issue with certain things, his jealousy and dissatisfaction.
Lin An Lan thought to himself, this was probably the error of love. He thought he was thinking of Cheng Yu, but what Cheng Yu wanted wasn’t what he wanted.
After all, the hardest trust in this world was to trust the other person unreservedly no matter what they encountered and compared to trust, things like jealousy and having an issue with certain things were much easier.
If Cheng Yu wanted, he could satisfy him at anytime.
He hugged Cheng Yu, kissing him, “So did my handsome, gentle and loving boyfriend agree to her request?”
Cheng Yu smiled and put his arm around his waist, “Your boyfriend is so devoted, how could he say yes to such a thing?”
“Then did my boyfriend ask me that on purpose to trap me?”
“Of course not.” Cheng Yu laughed, “I just wanted to hear you disagree.”
When Lin An Lan heard this, he thought of Cheng Yu’s face when he had said ‘It’s not impossible’. Although he had looked calm on the surface and seemed to be smiling, he must have been very disappointed in his heart.
But he never showed him such feelings.
He stroked Cheng Yu’s head, “Next time, if you’re not happy just tell me.”
“I can give you anything you want, but first I need to know what it is that you want.”
Lin An Lan said seriously, “This is my first time being a gardener, so I only know that I have to water, fertilize and expose you to sunshine, but I don’t know if I am watering you in the right way and if I the length of time that I’m exposing you to the sunshine is right , so you have to tell me. Once you tell me, I will know and give you the sun and rain you want.”.
As Cheng Yu listened to his words that seemed as if he was coaxing a child, his heart felt sweet and soft like honey melted into water.
No one had ever spoken to him in such a tone, not in his childhood and not in his teens, but in his youth, he had met someone like Lin An Lan.
He embraced him, placed his chin on his shoulder, and hugged him tightly.
“I’m happy as long you’re here for me.”
“Of course I’ll be here for you, so you can ask for anything, anything that you want.”
“It’s enough.” Cheng Yu hugged him tightly as he said softly, “It’s enough.”
As long as Lin An Lan was by his side, then he could do without the rest.
If he could have his jealousy, having issues with certain things or anything else, of course it would better, but if he didn’t, it was also fine.
What Cheng Yu wanted had always been simple. The world was always greedy, after getting a little, they would always want something more. After getting an inch, they would want to advance a foot, but he was different.
He remembered his original intention, so he never dared to take an inch and never dared to ask for more.
He only wanted Lin An Lan by his side. This was his initial wish and his only wish from the beginning.
“As long as you don’t leave me, then anything else is fine, anything at all.” He said contentedly, satisfied.
Lin An Lan couldn’t help but hug his little tulip who was so cautious in love tighter, feeling a little helpless. His little flower looked healthy and beautiful on the outside, no different from other tulips, but was like a mimosa on the inside. If he just touched him a little he would be very satisfied and even ask him if there was anything else he wanted.
His little tulip was so contented that he even said, ‘As long as you allow me to stay in your garden it’s enough.’
As for the rest, how to fertilize, how to water, when to expose him to sunshine and how long he should expose him, his little tulip refused to say anything about it, as if one more word would be too much trouble for him and he would be removed from the garden.
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I don’t know- is the perfect combination of fluff and angst… the thing is, my heart really hurts but I still want to continue. A self torture, you can say.
Totalmente, me duele pero lo amo, quiero llorar y sonreÃr a la vez ahhhhh